I've never been the best at making and keeping New Years Resolutions. While I absolutely love the fresh start of a new year, there's something that can seem... daunting about resolutions. Maybe it's the pressure of adding one more thing to my plate that sometimes makes me feel like avoiding the hype around all the goal setting completely. I mean, don't mothers already have enough to juggle and remember?
As I reflected on how I wanted my 2019 to look, my mind filled with ideas on how to make it the best year filled with amazing memories. But, something kept tugging at my heart each time I thought of a something to try and accomplish to make these memories with my family. When I finally quit fighting it and really stepped back and looked at it, I realized that this was the only resolution I had for 2019: just be their mama.
That's it. Nothing more, nothing less. I just want to be their mama, and what that looks like may vary day to day, and that's ok. They don't need the perfect mom, they just need THEIR mom. I want to spend my days giving hugs when they're sad, looking in their eyes and saying I love you, and holding hands as they fall asleep. I need them just as much as they need me, and these small seemingly routine moments are what memories are made of... for all of us.
While I still have goals for myself personally + professionally as we begin a new year, adopting the mantra "just be their mama" has helped keep me focused in the moments of chaos or doubt, guilt or worry.
Just be their mama.
That's all they need. And that's all I need to be.